refusing to go
im not allowing myself
to make mistakes
refusing to see
any difference
in the before or after life
i go between
refusing to eat
refusing to sleep
i just might live for another hour

i cannot see
i cannot hear
you shut your mouth
refuse to say
another word
even thought
my mind is here
my body is not
refusing to breathe
refusing to live
i just might see the other side
where i would be free from self-denial
where i would be free from self-denial

refusing to breathe
refusing to live
i just might see the other side
where i would be free from self-denial
where i would be free from self-denial